There you are. You have established yourself in the yoga posture. The stretch is deep and the alignment is precise. You have come a long way in your physical ability of mastering the pose. As your teacher pushes you further in the forward bend you pull and struggle to reach some desired position. For a moment there is a mental orgasm, a feeling you have achieved something special. Like all good things they pass, having you yearning for more. Your desires start to haunt you by demanding that same feeling from last week. After years of practice you go on playing to the tune of your desires. You begin to feel helpless and unsuccessful in accomplishing a feeling of union. Depression kicks in and you are about ready to quite the yogic path. You decide today is your last class.
With all hope for achievement given up you naturally drop your desires. The teacher tells you to stay present with the sensations of the body and the breath. As you do so the body feels heavy and firm against the mat. As the breath moves in and out you feel an energy field within and without your body. You feel the entire body is made of energy; it expands with the in breath and contracts with the out breath. From Shavasana (corpse pose) you gracefully move into your asanas (posture). As you come into the forward bend your head rest against your knees as it has many times before. The teacher begins to push your back as he has many times before. A voice inside says "surrender." Agreeing, you keep you body relaxed and begin to go deeper than ever before. Still it doesn't matter to you. You've put you attention on the breath. The sensations of your body come into your field of awareness but you don't give importance. Your not sure where the body starts and ends. It is a feeling of energy and space. This expereince deepens with each passing posture. When you come out of final relaxation thoughts have no grip on you. They still arise but pass like a distant cloud in the sky. As you walk to your car nothing feels more important. As you move you right hand to open the door nothing feels more important. As you hold the steering wheel and push down on the accelerator nothing feels more important. This experience of doing one thing at a time brings joy to yourheart. The load of desire has lifted.
As the time passes and your attachment to the world thickens but you are not worried. You understand that the experiences are separate from the experiencer, that a desireless life filled with positive healthy actions is a life of abundance and satisfaction.
Om Shanti Shanti Shanti Om Peace Peace Peace
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